It seems like Satan has been working hard on me to make me feel small, worthless and hopelessly flawed.
There are days when life, and all the suffering, pain, and heartache that comes with it, seems so meaningless and I really begin to wonder why I am here on earth at all.
I recently saw this image and the reality of my own insignificance and worthlessness in the vast expanse of the universe became jarringly apparent.
The famous astronomer Carl Sagan shared this insight about this image:
"The earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that in glory and in triumph they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of the dot on scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner of the dot. How frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds. Our posturings, our imagined self-importance, the delusion that we have some privileged position in the universe, are challenged by this point of pale light. Our planet is a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark... It's been said that astronomy is a humbling, and I might add, a character-building experience. To my mind, there is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. " (Pale Blue Dot: A Vision of the Human Future in Space, p. 6)
It is so humbling to look at that tiny speck floating in the solar system knowing, that on the day this picture was taken, there was a little girl named Heather living, hoping, and dreaming on it. Looking at that pale blue dot makes me see that all my ambitions, dreams, worries, and fears are just a drop in the bucket in the vast universe of God's creations, and it seems impossible that He would care about them at all. This perspective makes me cry, like Moses did after God showed him all the creations which He had made, "Now, for this cause I know that man is nothing, which thing I never had supposed." (Moses 1: 10)
The message that Satan has been pounding into me lately really is true...
I am nothing.
And all the problems, insecurities and ambitions I have are infinitely unimportant.
And yet, at the same time...
I am everything.
And all the problems, insecurities, and ambitions I have are infinitely important.
For we read in Moses 7:28-37 that God cares deeply about each and every one of His creations.
"And it came to pass that the God of heaven looked upon the residue of the people, and he wept... And Enoch said unto the Lord: How is it that thou canst weep, seeing thou art holy, and from all eternity to all eternity? And were it possible that man could number the particles of the earth, yea, millions of earths like this, it would not be a beginning to the number of thy creations; ... how is it thou canst weep?
The Lord said unto Enoch: Behold these thy brethren; they are the workmanship of mine own hands, and I gave unto them their knowledge, in the day I created them; and in the Garden of Eden, gave I unto man his agency;... but behold, they are without affection, and they hate their own blood;... and the whole heavens shall weep over them, even all the workmanship of mine hands; wherefore should not the heavens weep, seeing these shall suffer? (Moses 7:28-37)"
How incredible is it that even though I am just one, teeny tiny portion of God's creations, He loves me.
He knows me.
He cares about me.
And when I kneel down each morning and night the Master of all Creation, the Lord of the Whole Universe, listens to my prayer.
That knowledge fills me with awe and somehow makes my personal heartaches, worries, and ambitions much easier to bear. It makes me realize how silly it is to harbor feelings of anger or pride and how pointless it is to seek after the the praise and wealth of the world. God has promised that those who "overcome the world" and serve Him will inherit all that He possesses, which is something that our mortal minds can not even begin to fathom. It is glory, power and joy beyond our wildest imaginations.
"For behold, this is my work and my glory—to bring to pass the immorality and eternal life of man." (Moses 1:39)
I truly am nothing amidst the glory of God's infinite creations but I have the potential to be everything.